N stands for Nuptial Knot
Nuptial Knot relates to marriage when a boy and a girl are united together by a Knot , in the hope that this Knot creates a love bond between them and unites them for lifetime . They share their happiness , sorrows , ups and downs equally .
A girl’s marriage story
Hi , My name is Priya . I am a single child of my father . I am writing it as only father because God took away my mother when I was very small . I am thirty five years old now and working as a teacher in a school . I would take you to my past first and then bring you to my present , and then would ask you to suggest about my future too .
As I told you , I was a single child of my father. I have always been a dark looking girl but my friends said I had a bright intellect . Since childhood , I had love of reading and writing , writing short stories was my passion and I still have a diary full of my penned stories . Unlike other girls who start dreaming of tying Nuptial Knot just after they cross the age of twenty , I was still studying at the age of thirty , part time earning also and taking care of myself and my father . Depression had slowly started engulfing my father since the day Mom went up in the sky and thereafter he started turning as a weak person , both physically and emotionally . My father did try for my marriage but I feel ,not whole heartedly. The exact reason I don’t know but may be because he was emotionally weak and felt over possessive for me or was he worried about the recurring family expenditure his daughter was bearing . Many matrimonials were rejected for one or the other reason . I also had almost stopped thinking of marriage as I had enrolled myself for research work in the university along with my job. The subject of psychology interested me and I loved spending time with people , listening to their life problems , their happy and sad moments .
In 3 years of my research work , I had gathered enough data which exemplified many theories of psychology when one day I met Prakash in the library . He was a polio patient and was searching for some books .I got a chance again for my research work . Talking to him , I came to know that he had also joined research work in the university campus . It was his first day as a research fellow in the theatre department – the world of acting ! We talked and the facts added to my psychology research how a polio child whose all family was illiterate strived to enter university for doctorate. What kind of bond developed in the first meeting that it started becoming daily affair . The canteen meetings or together watching plays in his department or the occasional exchange of gifts , all these acted as emotional drivers . Our discussions about our researches moved ahead to discuss about our future life too . My brain did interrupt me about my future life partner being a polio patient but heart questioned how did this act as a defect in his intellect ? My brain did interrupt me about adjusting in an illiterate family but my heart again said the opposite . I don’t know what bond had got created between us .
Finally we tied the Nuptial Knot . But within two months of marriage , I could feel a different psychology theory coming into limelight . Was the Nuptial Knot not tied tightly ? The love bond seemed diminishing day by day . I was expected to do all the family expenditure along with the mandatory house chores . His illiterate family and my research mind couldn’t synchronize . His ego , arrogance and focussing only on himself started disturbing me and Handling his attitude all the time started pressurizing me . I felt intense pressure when he didn’t comfort me even when I met with an accident .
It has been two years and I am still handling this pressure . Where is that original love bond lost ? Has the bond turned into bondage ? I am brainstorming to find that person’s psychology who avoids any responsibilities , just focusses on himself , wants you to act like a puppet , lacks empathy for feelings of others . I am unable to come to any conclusion . Am I bad at my psychology research work or He is good enough at his Theatre research work ?
My thoughts on Nuptial Knot
The Nuptial Knot , the uniting of two souls should be actually uniting of two souls . The bond should be as to love together , laugh together , cry together . When one wants , the other gives. When one shouts , the other listens . When one is going through a bad phase , the other stands like a rock beside . There should me no words I or My or Mine . Only We or Us sound good . Let the Nuptial Knot bring Nuptial Bliss.
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